Lately is seems that a main focal point in my life, concerns my dreams, the ones that I had many years ago, yet it seems that I have escaped or simply ignored them. It's not that we do not believe that they will come to pass, instead it is the simple fact that we forget and replace it with our realities of today. My dreams for my life are so complex and I have realized that I have been settling for less. I want to be in ministry as I am now, but I also want to fulfil my other dreams that I have pushed aside for the last four years.
My music director spoke on dreams the other day in class, and some of the points he made were very efficient. I do not want to forget the dreams, the visions that God has given me. I do not want to settle for less and continue to live a life that is normal. I want to live above reproach, I want to be successful in the spiritual and physical world. Today's Pentecostal society has so many "called servants" and yet there are just a handful of actual successful people. A huge majority are preachers, preacher's wives, working low-end jobs, Bible college students. But there is more to life than that! What happened to Pentecostal doctors, nurse practitioners, lawyers, CEO's, ...? There is more to our callings, than living a life separate from the world. Preachers and their wives are wonderful and some are called specifically to that, but for those who aren't and use it as a crutch for lazy ministry is not acceptable.
My dream was to be exactly who I am right now, as far as voice and music goes. I am completely satisfied with that aspect. But I feel so unaccomplished because a long time ago, God called me to yet another avenue. He called me to the medical field... But the amazing thing is, is that I can use what I gained at Gateway for four years and transition into a medical degree. At that point, I will have accomplished success in both worlds! I do not want to be just another singer, who went to Bible College, who is working at an $11.00/hr job for the rest of my life. Its not all about money, but it is about success in a way. Not that I think I am better than anyone else, but I do not want to be stereotyped as the typical Pentecostal. Ugh.
This blog could be controversial, but I am okay with that option as well. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and this is mine on the dreams of yesterday, the hopes of tomorrow and the redundancy of our movement.
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Inspiring. You go girl!
hmmm very interesting, AND you know what i have to think about this ... can you say CEO, Lawyer, Fashion Designer & Youth Pastor .. mmmmhmmm exactly what I thought. Absolutely nothing wrong with that, all these people are "settling" for what someone has told them this is the best they could have .. pssshhh huh hunny they dont have a clue about life, and i think ive turned this into a sermon so i should stop now. Seriously we dont need no more patty pentecostals that sit behind the scenes and let everyone else do the work and claim to be JUST a prayer warrior, STEP UP ... more strong powerful independent women is what this world needs, im sick and tired of freakin pushovers that think they have to sit behind the scenes and let the guys do the work ... Rachel steps down off soapbox as rotten tomatoes start to get thrown ....
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