First Week of Last Semester

This is officially the first week of last semester at Gateway College of Evangelism... what an amazing experience it has been. I can hardly believe I have been here for four years, when I was supposed to stay for one. I cannot believe I have met so many wonderful people, experienced so many extraordinary opportunities, and accomplished my dreams, fulfilling my extreme passion for music. I am so afraid of what is outside of my comfort zone, now that I have only been living this life inside these walls. Its my last time to help with chorale try-outs, with everyone trying to listen at the doors. It was my last time already to help people with their try-outs prior to... and I have loved helping people for these years! I have such a passion for that, and will honestly miss it!

One thing I will not miss, is the senseless drama of Bible College. There are times I cannot even talk to certain friends without my other friends getting upset. I seriously feel that I am in highschool! Since when did the cool people dictate necessarily who else is cool and/or not cool? I can't talk to some people without my other friends getting irritated and drawing their own conclusions. This aspect I most definitely will not miss. I am officially a ringleader of a group of people, who are in retrospect, musicians or singers. That kind of a group is exactly my cup of tea. But that does not mean, that if someone else is not up to par, that I am not their friend. There was a time in my life, when I was no one... not very talented... and just an outsider. Now that I am older, its changed, but there is always a group that you will not mesh well with.

I realize that my group of friends are funny, talented, fashionable, classy/trendy, but I also realize that...we are negative, exclusive, stuck-up, and not as cool as we think we are outside of our own little world. That puts a damper on our confidence! It has taken someone to tell me all of that, to make me realize how shallow I truly can be. I refuse to be known during my last semester, as someone who only hung out with my little clique. I want to be comfortable with everyone... be able to hold a true conversation with every person in this school, talented, in style, or not. I realize my friends are out of control crazy and I respect that, because I am that way as well. I do hate hearing the statement.... "You made us this way..." Gosh! I made some massive mistakes then! Hahhaha! Well anyways for all my friends that read this... I love you and appreciate you... and this is a random day!