Within Reason

Two simple words: Within reason. Those two words are not so simple for my complex mind and personality. I am literally driving myself crazy with my own complexity. I have just started tanning again, and I am going to pretty much burn up my skin, because since I am currently pale, I have to go as long as I possibly am allowed. Instead of just taking baby steps back to my original color, I want it to be obtained immediately. I annoy myself, plus my skin is bright red... nice.

That's not the only thing I am doing without of reason, its like my mind accepts a challenge, but then I end up going past the challenge by like 15 steps, and now I am just tired. I don't have strength for this! I started out exercising 2 miles, now I am at 4, which I do everyday. I will not allow myself even a day off. And I am even considering doing the 4-mile walk 2 times each day next week, which (for all you slow mathematicians) is 8 miles in one day. That would be fine, if I was just walking but this program is intense. See, I can't just take it simple, I have to take it to the most extreme. So now I am doing that plus all these stomach exercises, and I have to tell you, I am sore. Tired and sore. But oh the joy that I am losing this, is amazing!!!

So as you can see, I have not been practicing reason lately. I cannot think of one thing I am doing within reason. I am going overboard on exercising, dieting, staying up too late, tanning, journal-ing, writing my memoirs, and I really need to take a break! I need to remember that it's okay to just slow down, and let life slip by a little slower. I think its that I am frustrated with being here in Washington with hardly any friends, and I am bored out of my mind. That could possibly be the main reason that I am not staying with a healthy, maintained edge of reason.

My new goal this week, until I leave for Youth Congress, is to take it easy. Results will be seen in due time, and going to sleep will rest my weary, little mind, so that I may stay within reason of my decisions to come.