Forever and Always

I sit here trying to understand, trying to piece back together
A puzzle so confusing, and complex
How could you do this? How are you capable of such hurt?
You denied me; you left me with no shoulder to lean on
You turned away from me, when I was broken
Your promises have turned into lies that drip from your mouth
What was once love is now replaced with maliciousness?
I know not who you are, nor care to find out
For the last time you have taken my insecurities and
Distributed them to whom you desire
I’ve been made a fool, I laugh at my own calamity
I look at the proof of who we once were
And only see the lies of which it was made
For what we attempt to hide can develop a life of its own
It’s a life; I choose not to live any longer
You have not only caused me grief, but
Have prevented anyone else from knowing the real me
I have done myself an injustice, as you walk
Away justifying all that we were to better entertain
Soon you will have disappeared, but are not forgotten
Your grip has wrenched my very soul into a twisted
Character of mistrust and bitterness
I pray that God will hear my desperation for solitude
Grant me the peace and sanity that I am robbed of
If there is another opportunity to love another,
I will only see your face
As I reach out and slowly withdraw from fear, I
Will curse your very existence
When I finally do love again, I will cling to that which
Is right and perfect, not a fight, not a lie
And I will know I found the right man.
No betrayal, no discontent, no struggle
But perfect, just as it always will be.
Forever and always.