I have officially been in Yakima, Washington for almost 2 years, and have finally decided it was time to move home. I would have never traded the experience I have gained by being here for anything. The ministry aspect at our home missions church, The Intersection Church has been literally irreplaceable. People skills, ministry minded situations and the teachings of a great pastor has equipped me into being a stronger minister of music. At college, we strived for perfection so much that we lost our focus on our anointing. God has taken me so far from where I was as a singer into being a minister for His glory. It would be very easy to stay here for a long time and continue to minister at the Intersection Church, but God has a different plan. These two years have caused me to grow up, take some responsibility for my actions, and decide what, when and where I am going to continue my life. I worked at a doctor's office here in Yakima, and achieved some great experience that I most certainly need in today's work field. So if everything is so perfect then why am I moving away from this supposed perfection?
My family.
My education.
My career.
My ministry.
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His will
I've been away from my family for six whole years now, and I have completely lost touch with them and needed to re-establish some communication and closeness with them. My family has fallen away from the Lord, and I hope to bring them back to the truth as much as I can. I am extremely scared of going back to absolutely nothing. No friends, no job, no church, no ministry. It's quite overwhelming and sometimes I think, "Whoa, what am I doing?" But I believe some people stay in the same place and in their same comfort zone for far too long, and life just passes them by. They remain in the same situations, often looking for a way out. It would be easy for me to stay here, where everything is already planned out for me. But that is not the right plan for this season of my life. It's hard for me to understand the directions of God, they are not so easy to read sometimes and He leaves the decisions up to us. I'm nervous about being in the place I despised so much. Apprehensive about not having a church to help minister or be a part in. I can tell you that the devil has spoken his lies already, words such as, "You'll never find a church that will need you there." "Your ministry will be gone, you wont be singing anymore for any congregation, you will fall away from God so quick." And as soon as I hear that, I feel such an anger that he would continue to lie to me and discourage me, when I am trying to do something that I believe is God's will.
No, I don't know where the road will lead as far as churches and jobs, but I know that God is in control of my life, and He won't let me down. I am desiring to go into nursing, He will help me along the way, I am confident in that. There will be just the right church that needs me as much as I need them, and He will be the One who will provide that. There will come a job that is close to home, flexible and dependable, He is faithful to the faithful.
It is hard to leave a church family behind and a second family that has taken you under their wing for the last couple years, but I count it as a blessing to have met such wonderful people and to have had the opportunity of a lifetime in my hands. So as I leave Yakima, Washington in less than two days... I leave with a heavy heart, but one full of great memories and love. I look onto the horizon and I see a city, one that will maybe forever change the destination of my life once again. Onto Louisville, Kentucky...
