After a conversation with one of my best friends the other day, I began to think of a new topic for my blog. I have spoke on this issue in some of the previous blogs, but I would like to expound upon it. I realize that in life we meet people, who make an impression on us, sometimes we have a connection, sometimes it is connection formed after being used to them and their company. You don’t find that connection with a lot of people so when you do, you are very protective of it and will desire it up above any previous and sometimes future relationships. It’s the connection that keeps you awake at night talking to them on the phone until the wee hours of the morning, (for those who do that) and it’s the connection that causes you to miss them even when they don’t want you anymore or they have purposefully hurt you. It’s a connection we long for… it’s that feeling that, for the moment you are with the person who completes you, even if it doesn’t last.
My question to my friend, during our conversation, was "when do we quit loving in just the moment and start loving for real? When we say we will be always be there, is it just for the moment or do we mean forever?" How many people have told you that they loved you, that they would always be there… no matter what? Then you look around, and they are not there, they do not care, & they do not love you…? When did our spoken word become so invaluable and just a commonality? I do not want anyone to tell me they love me, until they mean it with their whole heart. Like the; I love you, I will always be here no matter what kind of love, and really, truly mean it! I have had that connection once with someone… how heartbreaking it was to truly love only to have it made into a mockery of your emotions and of every memory. It’s like spending a significant amount of time with someone to be left with only memories, no words, nothing. How devastating that is…
Now I long for that love that is irreplaceable, not just in the moment, true, intimate, beautiful, exclusive and real. When you say I will always be there, please mean it and always be there. It’s time for us, especially me, to quit loving in the moment, to love with that forever love, to search for that connection, holding onto it and not letting go… Getting to the heart of the matter.
My question to my friend, during our conversation, was "when do we quit loving in just the moment and start loving for real? When we say we will be always be there, is it just for the moment or do we mean forever?" How many people have told you that they loved you, that they would always be there… no matter what? Then you look around, and they are not there, they do not care, & they do not love you…? When did our spoken word become so invaluable and just a commonality? I do not want anyone to tell me they love me, until they mean it with their whole heart. Like the; I love you, I will always be here no matter what kind of love, and really, truly mean it! I have had that connection once with someone… how heartbreaking it was to truly love only to have it made into a mockery of your emotions and of every memory. It’s like spending a significant amount of time with someone to be left with only memories, no words, nothing. How devastating that is…
Now I long for that love that is irreplaceable, not just in the moment, true, intimate, beautiful, exclusive and real. When you say I will always be there, please mean it and always be there. It’s time for us, especially me, to quit loving in the moment, to love with that forever love, to search for that connection, holding onto it and not letting go… Getting to the heart of the matter.
