Happy Birthday to me!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!! Its official, I am 24 years old today, and I am absolutely loving it! Also apparently its the blogger sites birthday too, kinda weird? Huh? I have had so many phone calls, text messages, cards, roses, a beautiful lunch with a dear friend, went to an interview, got the job, and now, I will have to say that my heart for the first time in weeks is ecstatic! I am so unbelievably happy that I can barely contain it! Eeek!

The past couple of months since I moved from St. Louis to Yakima, Washington has been the hardest time of my life. I have been so confused, irritated, frustrated and alone. I kept asking God if I had misread where I was supposed to go? I could not understand why I could not get a job, could not understand why people I loved so much would desert me, and hence began a road that I hope to begin to look back on. My only hope was that I would soon get a job and my life here would officially begin. My whole life, I have been surrounded by people in every which way, and for the first time, I have actually been by myself. Now note, I have learned a lot about who I am, what I want, and all that, but after a while, you are sick of yourself. I am amazed that I can lie on my bed, listening to music for hours. I feel like I am 12 again! But now, I am given a chance to be myself in the work place again, and I give all the glory to God for making that possible.

I know that life gets discouraging along the way, but I never knew the loneliness that life could bring until now. It has definitely made me appreciate my friends, wherever they all are, and I am so thankful for each and everyone of them! I have been met lately with incredible disappointment, heartache that should not exist, and somehow, I am stronger. I don't understand that, but it is the truth! God had taken me down this road for a reason, maybe it was to teach me a couple of lessons, if so, then I am quite educated by now! This is not a very interesting post, but I am just so excited that I had to write. And besides, it's my birthday!

Just a moment...

It's been a while since I have had a chance or a subject to blog about, but today, I thought why not share with my limited readers an update in my life. Well I went to Youth Congress in Charlotte, NC, and it was amazing. I sang in front of the biggest crowd I have ever sang in front of, 17,000 estimated. Not going to lie, I was a bit nervous, but amazingly on the dvd, I do not seem like it at all. I never go to any such event with the hopes of meeting that special someone as most do. I meet so many people, but am never quite interested in them as far as an extensive relationship would go. Nevertheless, I met him.

Him. The guy every girl dreams of, the one who in an instant sweeps you off your feet. I met him and he immediately asked to get our picture taken, so I wrote him off as one of the young fans that frequently come up to me. The next night, I saw him again, and he told me he wanted to talk to me and spend time with me. Which we did, until around daylight. I treated him just as I treated his friends, for I try to be no respecter of person's. It has been over a week, since we met and we have wrote each other more texts in that week, than I did in my entire last relationship. Imagine my surprise at this turn of events.

Well I have not been considering him really, because he is way too beautiful for me. He is the guy that every girl looks at, and would just like to have for at least a day. That kind of guy is not for me, because I will not fight for his attention. But I haven't had to fight at all, for some reason, he thinks of me as above him. Which works, because then I don't have to work too hard. He claims I am his favorite singer, the funniest person he has ever met, and I have heard all those before, but this time I want to believe it. We were texting last night, and he said he was tired and he was going to bed. So I just quit texting him, respecting his sleep. Ten minutes later, I get a text that says, "I can't sleep peacefully, until you tell me good night..." I stared at that text and thought wow. He impressed me at that very moment, something most of my past relationships never did. Wow. Wow is all I can say...

This is good for me, even if it doesn't work out, it is taking my mind off my past for a few weeks, long enough for me not to care anymore. He is not a rebound, because I could not begin to compare perfection to imperfections. Why does he have to be so innocent and so beautiful? He told me a couple nights ago, he wishes he could kiss me, and that the next time we are together we will do so. This gorgeous man is desiring to kiss me, and then he says, "I will have to practice, so I can impress you, because I know you are good." What I have wanted to hear for the past year, I heard in the last week! I invited him to go somewhere with me in the next couple of months, and it might happen, might not. Whatever happens between us, is fine. It might dwindle off here in the next couple of months, I could careless. Because all I know is that today, I feel wanted, beautiful, desirable, and finally, happy for a moment. And just a moment is good enough for me...